I used to hate it when people used that phrase because it’s used to imply something that is easy, something that you never forget and can always pick up on at a later point in life. I’d mutter to myself under my breath, “Easy for YOU to say.” Because for me, “riding a bike” was fraught with anxiety.
When I decided to sign up for this triathlon, I knew it was going to be as much (or more) a psychological challenge as a physical one. (although that isn’t anything to sneeze at, either!) I feel like I pretty much can deal with the running. Last week, I got into a swimming pool for the first time in 17 years and.. I didn’t drown! I didn’t exactly meet the goal of 200 yards with only a 10second rest (starting recommendation for the Olympic distance triathlon) but I did the whole thing freestyle, and I know if I’d mixed it up with some other strokes it would have been OK. So I checked that off the list.
Last weekend Mr McBody went to pick up Junior’s bike from the house she’d left it at. I totally hemmed and hawed all week, even when he asked me if I wanted to take it on a little spin around our cul-de-sac. NO thank you. Honestly, I was terrified. But today I told myself, I’d give it a try.
First I woke up late. Then I did a pile of paperwork, paid bills, and organized an entire purse and deskful of receipts into a neat little accordian file with sticky tabs. That took me pretty much half the day. Then I had to have lunch. And a cup of coffee. And fret about my clothing. Mister McBody was laughing at me. “What’s the problem?” I was wearing long leggings. “But what if it’s hot?” “Then wear shorts.” “But I need something to protect me.” “Protect you from what?” “From the BIKE!” I was envisioning my legs getting caught in gears and chains and having half my calf skin torn clear off. Finally, I went outside and it was indeed hot so I put on a pair of shorts.
He put air in the tires and applied some greasy goo stuff to the chain. I went into the house to go to the bathroom and procrastinate in any other way I could think of.
Finally we loaded up the bikes and drove down to the Estuary Trail, which is a lovely path I’ve often run on. It goes along the water and a bird sanctuary and ends up near the Oakland airport. It is utterly flat with just a couple curves here and there and best of all, no traffic. It was the perfect spot for a first (in many years) ride. How many years? Well Juniorette is 17 years old and she swears she has NEVER seen me on a bike in her whole life. She denies any memory of such a thing. I told her I’d ridden along the Truckee River at Tahoe, and she said she didn’t believe it. So it’s been a lot of years.
I was tense. To say the least.
Finally it was the moment of truth. We fiddled with the seat and then I got on and… at first my hands were gripping those handlebars so tight I thought the skin was going to shear off my knuckles. But after a minute or two I realized I wasn’t totally struggling to stay upright. I skidded to a stop and jumped off at the sign of any turning, but eventually I got the hang of that too. We took off down the trail and it was pretty good for about five minutes. Then my pocket started ringing. I realized it was Junior, calling me from her day off. She is off being a counselor at circus camp where they have NO EMAIL, NO TEXTING and NO CELL PHONE reception so we’ve been completely incomunicado from her. So when I got this call I knew that she was on her day off and was once again in cell range. I HAD to answer it.
We ended up standing there in the trail for a good half hour, talking with our offspring. (Good thing I chose Mr. McBody for my first riding partner and not anyone else, because nobody else would’ve put up with that!) We had a very good talk in which she pondered her many life paths ahead of her, and by the time we got going again I had almost forgotten I was terrified.
We rode for a total of 10K or 6.2 miles. ME! Wow!!!!! Now, granted, this ride involved no hills or traffic or cars, BUT the fact that I survived it without having a complete physical or mental breakdown was a huge reason to celebrate. I was so relieved! SO RELIEVED.
On the way home we discussed our dinner plans. I really didn’t want to go out. But I also didn’t really feel like cooking. But I wanted to celebrate. What to do? Then I remembered Danica talking about Foodgawker yesterday and I remembered how I love that site and that I’d just added the iPhone app. I opened it up and it jumped out at me: MUSSELS! We love mussels but we’ve never made them at home. We veered off to stop at Market Hall which is a collection of tiny special food shops including seafood, produce, cheese… yum.
They had mussels. Yay! And they weren’t expensive! Then I saw these gorgeous heirloom tomatoes and I thought, “Caprese salad!” Mister M picked up some Prosecco and other wine, and some mozzarella di Bufala, and we were set.
WHAT A FEAST!
This is the recipe I used, which I originally found via Foodgawker. It was soooooooo good.
And here are some fancy pics from our fancy at-home dinner. SO GOOD and a wonderfully fitting celebration for my unfatal first foray into bike riding. One more step to being less terrified! Cheers!












Man I aspire to be YOU.
In your fearlessnessment
In your MOTHERHOOD.
in your writing.
I ALL OF THE ABOVE.
so so proud of you!
So proud of you and so jealous too! I have a bike in my parents’ garage that I really should get out because it’s honestly not that terrifying once you’re out there and enjoying it.
And I love your gourmet dinner at home!!
Give it a little try, Mandy… it’s not so bad!!
Congratulations! You faced down a fear and didn’t let it keep you off the bike anymore. So happy for you and wishing you the best as you prepare to achieve the goal you set.
I think this is what I admire about you most…that you face your fears and go for it anyway. Add to it your willingness to just go and do something, physical or not. It’s something I really picked up on at Fitbloggin and I realized that ever since, I’ve been striving to be a bit more Foodie McBody-ish
Good for you! I havne’t ridden a bike for a years, either, but I’m tempted to find one, now…
Now I need to go pump up the tires on that old mountain bike in the garage. But that’s not what I’m really afraid of, so if I were REALLY listening to your message and facing my fears, I’d be at Academy, buying a bathing suit so I could go to the gym and (gulp) swim. ish.
Woo hoo! Rock it Foodie!!
YAY!!!!!!!! YIPPY!!!!!!!
thatisall
I’m so glad I came across your blog – I’m absolutely terrified about riding a bike – and yes I did ride a bike about 20 years ago, but since then I’ve learned how to cripple myself with irrational fear and I just can’t bring myself to get on a bike again … hmmm after reading your blog post, maybe I’ll give it a try
Congrats!!
If you do, make sure it’s in an easy, untrafficked area. I know I would not have been able to cope with traffic or hills my first time out. But since I did OK on the flat trail, I feel like I can start to “graduate” my rides to add more difficulty. Good luck! We can do this!
Thanks for the tip